Surreal...

posted by c0mb0kick | LeRoy

Finally...its the school holidays, but as usual the school is calling us back cause it just cannot bare to be empty. Really, sometimes I do wonder why they even call the school holidays "holidays"! Having almost always spend half the time in school during the holidays...*sigh*

Anyway, I think this is the part where I start start typing to my heart's content and have no worry in the world , what so ever, of who is reading this and so on and so forth....while you people just read...lol

I think I've finally come to realise that life has always been so surreal...
I know the many scoundrels out there thinking how naive am I to finally realise this fact...
But then again this fact usually differs from person to person, so I am happy I finally realise this...

Having always lived an "interesting" life, I had, and still have always been put through many events that has obviously change how I perceive life. That in mind, I'd daresay that my secondary school life was a rather pampered reality. Even though it was not perfect. but it was the best I could achieve. But ,alas, good things never ever last long. So as the days got shorter( sec sch days to be exact), my list of problems got longer.

Now, I'm living a JC life. Tough many would say, SOCIAL SUICIDE! others might add...for me those facts were indeed true...maybe even now, as I'm typing to my hearts content(hypocrite!). But I think a change is at hand. Having been suddenly riped away from that life I was so used to( though at that time I used to complain a lot) I was put through an era where I could hardly believe possible. This I would thank Mr Chew dearly and sincerely for having put me through such an experience once, at least I had a taste of what this was like...so in a way, I was prepared.

Sadly, all I did was taste but not appreciate. So from then on, I thought that no such thing would happen again, where one had to fend for one's sanity and that the world laid in your hands. Naive, I was, to think my world was perfect, having always only moan and grumble about "how life would be better if my dreams came to fruition". Thus, I lived my life by the days, tackling each day as it went by, always complaining how every single day is not worth it.

Now, however, after having been through so much, it is time to thoroughly reflect and think how the future is going to be made. Life has always been a surreal blur. With all its problems, solutions, happiness, sadness and the list goes on. I doubt anyone I've ever met ever daresay " My life is a clear picture, where I can clearly decipher all the colours, composition, and brush strokes." I think the only time where anyone who would be able to do that would be when they are breathing their last breathe.

Our life is a constant reality of hardcore painting, trying to see which colour combination fits best or how big a brush stroke will affect the entire master piece, it all in a matter of how much care and scrutiny you sacrifice to make your life a better picture.

I've for so long, complain too much on how life has always been unfair, how it is just so depressing and that the grass is always greener on the other side. But take a step back and realise this. The only reason why that grass is greener is either THAT person bothered to mow his lawn and kept his grass neater or YOU have not even bothered to realise that grass exist on your side, to the extent that is has became a jungle!

But that's just the wonder of life, everything you've ever wanted, everything you could ever dream of, is right here in your hands! As this one saying goes," The brave might not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all."

Destiny and Fate are usually used by those who could not comprehend and appreciate the full control and power one has over life. But please don't misunderstand this. I'm not talking about the whole entire world! I'm merely ramble for the last 15 mins your own life, MY own life. We have that power to make our life work for us. If not, who will? Only you know what you like and only you can put what you like on your plate. And to leave your future to time is just another death sentence to hell when you take your last breathe, to have that thought that you regretted not doing this and that.

Alas, we all only have one life to lead, though some wish to help lead the misguided ones or are leading 2 lifes which many would know as facades, but ultimately, we only have one life to live and if we do not maximise our fullest potential now, when will we ever be able to live it again?!

So, life is surreal even to those who are ready to pass on, still only a handful would be able to finally appreciate the masterpiece they took their whole life to paint.
Oh cmon, don't give me that look, we were the ones who deemed Picasso surreal paintings as ART!!! and stop drooling over your keyboard like that, this post has ended...sheesh...hard to get a decent audience nowadays...LOL

And as the paintbrush flows over the canvas of life, I can't help to think that you were once there to hold the brush steady...how I miss those times...