my feelings are in a whirl....help me keep them under control....

posted by Justin D. Pereira

I really cannot define what has to be done nowadays. Constantly facing the social pressure of the fear of being ostracized while another will in me tells me to control the class even though I am not a class leader. I have found out just one very shocking observation which I hope will not be true as I grow with my class over the months. It is sad when a task is being given, the will in them to work together as a class and finish it is simply not there. Having grown in Sembawang Secondary, the environment there and here is simply a clash of two very different cultures. The culture of self-spiritedness and fun-loving against that of an only can't-be-bothered attitude.

I cannot blame them entirely, as today's programme had a few flaws here and there, but overall it was quite good. Maybe my expectations are simply too high for them, I cannot accept it, but I believe I must adapt to their characteristics while I try to change. Still, my values and beliefs will not be moved, and you can expect a different Justin to appear when you next see me.